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Friday, May 27, 2005

star wars was pretty good. no, i love it. i like it even more than kingdom of heaven. oops. pretend i never said that. but omg, i love star wars. i love anakin except i flinched when he turned to the dark side. it was unpreventable, he loved padme too much. but a pity was that when anakin was in the process of changing into darth vader, he lost his good looks. he fell in he lava pits of mustafar and got burnt. so instead of his handsome features, anakin had a burnt face. omg. how can they do it to hayden christensen??? but seriously, he was cool period.

and i was sitting next to jiemin and jinghao. jiemin was relatively quiet but jinghao was like a little fan boy. you know, he mimic yoda's way of speaking. then he just kept saying things like "general grievous", " count dooku" etc. but it was nice to have a fanatic beside me so i wont feel like the only one extra who had seen all the episodes of star wars. but when i asked jinghao about whether mace windu will die, the bloody idiot wont say. stupid. he say must wait and see. i swore i was so shocked when anakin intercepted mace windu. stupid chancellor palpaltine. look so wrinkly still wants a shuai apprentice. obi-wan kenobi rocks! but i loved anakin more when he is not evil. i hate darth vader. breathe so deeply for what?

and then after the long show ended, jiemin and i wanted to take neoprint. well, liyan had a stomachache so he went searching for toilets in god knows where. then of course, i jump at the moment to get jinghao to take. but bloody jinghao absolutely REFUSE to go to the pink shop. i begged him to go and no he wont. stupid. i begged and begged and begged and he refused to budge! damn him. what is so wrong about a pink shop? it's just a pink shop for god's sake. i officially hate him now. stupid jinghao. i am so disappointed in him. he doesnt have the guts to go to a pink shop. then the guys dumped us to go to lan.

so after considering since we had no where to go to bugis, we tried to find them. instead we got lost in bugis. yes, jiemin and i stupidly walked outside. we walked for around half an hour!!! then i heard the call of nature and had to answer it. fortunately for me, there was this hotel at arab street. let's just say it had the scent of indians. but we went in anyway cos i was urgent. then we just aimlessly walked around searching for some bus stop so maybe we can see a bus which we could take. but no. lady luck did not shine upon us. we finally got to this mrt station. i was so thankful for it. i guessed jiemin was too. luckily, there were seats on the mrt and we managed to make it home.

but the main thing of this entry is that. ANAKIN SKYWALKER IS SO COOL.

well so i guess i will end off with the most famous phrase,

"may the force be with you."

and something wise yoda told anakin,

"To free yourself, try to let go.. of all that you are most afraid to lose."

and when padme saw evil anakin, she sobbed

"you are breaking my heart."

but i still love the normal phrase.

may the force be with you,
grumpy_

Thursday, May 26, 2005

i dont know. i was on a 'curry' high today. yes, macdonald's curry sauce makes people happy. well, maybe me. i had four packets of curry sauce with mcnuggets meal!! although i didn't finish the sauce, well...sobx. well, curry is nice but definitely not in an ice cream cone but if carmen tries it, i will gladly try it.

today was practically quite slack. like every single day after mid years. just slacking and why? cos i have our performance as an excuse. coming home late every day is an excuse for me slacking. yes, shuj, nat and carmen, better turn up for our performance on 2nd june.

today after school, shuj,carmen, xiuz, jiemin and i went to the nearby macs. actually it was just a stunt to escape cca for even longer. and i tell you, we were ultra lame at the macs. but not me, i was pretending to be mature. well, note the word mature. we crap about so much things. it's a refreshing change from je. and it's so long since we went so crazy and lame le.

but if you really want to know anything about the mac trip, let's see. we discuss about carmen's bad taste. she wants to steal chow chow! oops. did i just say that? jiemin is a type 'o' rabbit. xiuz, well she is just plain so *** that she cant get past my chair!!! shuj is xiuz's new target. shuj, better be careful sia!

and then we had cca. we painted the bloody backdrop and happy happy, i kenna stain the whole hand. not the monthly blood flow but yellow paint. i had no choice but to use thinner to rub it off. it stank period.

well, then i kinda confess to jinghao, jiemin and jiemin, and mingxi. it goes something like this:

* insert some name* qi shi, wo hen xi huan ni.

then jinghao and i acted out the play where someone will confess over the phone with help from jiemin and jiemin and mingxi.

first, u call the guy and crap around for 45 mins. going around in circles and circles and circles. until when the guy gets impatient and threatens to hang up. immediately stop him and blurt out "wo ai ni." then the guy will go "huh?" and you will have to repeat.

i dont know if jinghao and i acted it out well but it was fun. confessing. jiemin confessed. well, obviously it's the younger one. and if we accidentally offend anyone, sorry but it's really good fun confessing to someone who obviously knows it's a joke.

so next time, come to the confessing expert. will be happy to teach you a few tips. lol.

cheers,
grumpy_

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

i am tired and broke. full metal alchemist 9 came out just now. they are so trying to make me go broke. i am broke. let me repeat, i am broke. i have absolutely no money to buy shuj, yanling's present. so whoever who bought it, i guess i will have to owe u first. i dont know whether should i buy fma yet. i am so broke. i havent even buy 8 days. god. why is my world coming to? i need money. i need a part time job. i repeat. i need money.

some kind soul donate a few cents to me right now. i repeat donate some money to me.

i think i will not buy fma so fast lah. really no money le. i reached home at around 9 plus pm. that is how late.

i will not buy fma. i am really broke. ok. so instead, i will leave you with this cute little pic with only fma fans will like. even if deathnote comes out, sorry also have no money sia.

Friday, May 20, 2005

hey hey. why does my blog seem so devoid of comments recently? everyone very busy lately? lol. i should be the one that is busy. next tuesday, have to stay back till 8 plus for full dress rehearsal. why is it so late? because of the dance society, we can only start at 5 plus. i hate dancers. sobx. then jinghao introduced me to this chemistry forum. i know, how on earth can anyone make a chemistry forum? anyway, i found a particular cool website from there. it is called the stinky meat project.

it's kinda cool and it's under the bio chem section. it's about this project where they buy various meat and they leave it out in the open and see how it develops. there are lots of pictures and various descriptions. they even had maggots! and ants attacking the hot dog for two days but to no avail . the ground beef sort of bloated after ten over days. the pics are really kinda cool. if you want the address, tell me then i will pass it to you.

obviously, i wanted to post some pics again. i know, it's in my genes. and nat, carmen, shuj and xiuz, thanks for coming! here's to the four of you.

http://www.rvhs.moe.edu.sg/personal/s8936517a/todayismybirthday8dd.jpe

this is kinda weird but i like it. kind of.

and the following is for balding people. like me and xiu hui. lol.

http://www.rvhs.moe.edu.sg/personal/s8936517a/SH10.jpe

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

ok. the topic or title for this entry is called partially paralysis. i am suffering from this particular illness. unable to walk up and down the stairs in ease. u get the idea. i cant even bloody sit down on the floor without suffering acute pain. god. what is happening to my knees. i am getting old. so old yet i cant watch nc16 movies. oh god. what is the world coming to? at least, there's a plus. almost all sec4s r old too. they have knee pains. wait, winni has neck pain. but i have knee pain. i have knee pain. i have knee pain. so u know what pain i have? hey, why you so clever suddenly, knee pain.

okay. this was also the first time i went to check the dsa thing. then i stunned. academic achievements. NO! cca? BLOODY HELL NO. outstanding qualities? *blinks* communication skills? *blinks* then what can i put as my niche? nothing. i cant find any certs. nothing. nada. feel like killing myself.

but the bloody thing is that my knees still hurt. if they hurt somemore, gonna kill someone. raise your hand if you want me to kill you. *looks around eagerly*

now must try to convince weihuang to go to cl performance cos hopefully it will spark off a chain reaction. you should know what i am talking about. you know it!! actually weihuang quite poor thing. beside him, we have jiemin and I. then behind him got pauline. triple blow. but he lousy, wont go but someone in front of him....lol. dont play le. in case someone make thins difficult for me again. haiz. i want my old place. at least can crap there. and laze there. winni!!! what have you? god. i still have chinese to do. and cca tmr again and no jiemin and jinghao to pei wo. haiz. ill fated.

almost crying,
grumpy_

wait, i am not so pessimistic one loh.

trying to smile,
grumpy_

i hate my knees. any takers?

Friday, May 13, 2005

this was the first time i will ever say that cca was truly enjoyable. and it's not solely due to natania's credit alone. it was due to jiemin, jiemin, natania and obviously me. we were playing cutting out styrofoam and nat and jiemin tortured my orlando bloom picture by pining it up on the board. of all horrrors. nat had a fetish with the measuring tape. jiemin like sweeping maybe she didn't but she was best with the pen knife out of all of us. she cuts straight! that itself is a miracle. may everyone get better results like always.

and the thing i want to announce:

i have cca for the entire week next week. every single long ****ing day i will have to go to cca and yes, without a certain 'sec1' for company. lol. never mind, i have two powerful jiemins!

anyway, just wanted to say. we worked really hard for this performance. my hardest yet and this play is staged in a very professional theatre. and it's just ten bucks.

i urge all of you, please come to the performance. if not for what, just because jiemin and i are your friends. maybe jiemin dont want to be added in this but. come to our performance. please.

this is a sincere invitation.

grumpy_

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

a note of advice to those who are not of legal age.

do not attempt to go to golden village plaza singapura to watch the movie. go only when you are of legal age. why do i say this? because i had to go through a whole lot of trouble just to get to watch it.

firstly, the stupid ticket seller. he had to see five ics before he was willing to sell those darn precious tickets. so what we did, was to stop a couple of friendly passer bys to help us buy. they did. they were very nice.

just when we thought everything was over, the person tearing the tickets wanted to see our ics again in order to let us in. what the hell? xihui was trying to convince the person that they let people in by year. obviously the person did not believe it and had an apprehensive look on his face. but he finally did let us in saying that he was very nice and he was giving us face.

the worst thing is that, the movie did not deserve its nc16 rating. IT REALLY IS NOT WORTHY OF THE NC16 rating. i mean please, all i saw were like splashes of blood. just red liquid splattered on the various guys' faces when they made their kill. absolutely nothing interesting. and there was one interesting thing to note. all the knights' faces generally look the same i couldnt differentiate between them. obviously i know who orlando bloom is acting as. he was the only one who look different.

then i finally realise how to do the bloody amaths question. the only where got h cubed thing. cant believe i was so stupid. it was generally pretty nice. except for one thing, although i dont feel like admitting it, orlando bloom just do not have sufficient acting skills. he seriously did not make me believe that he was a leader. but he looked pretty cute on the screen. at sometimes. seriously, he was quite...

okay, better stop those gushing. oh yar, we went to times, and then there was an orlando bloom biography book!!!!!!! of course i took and see, the legolas pics were so cool. to complete our day, gerine and i followed xihui on her this fashion shopping spree. and at some vcd shop, we saw this gorgeous star wars poster. the one where anakin and natalie portman poses. that was sheer art. so it piqued my interest to watch star wars which definitely would not garner an nc16 rating. it would not or else i will have to go through all that trouble again.

what it is with months? are you sure those born in an earlier month than me are mature? i doubt so. look at yourself and compare.

i wanted to spam more orlando bloom pics but my com is really too laggy so i will just leave you off like that.

love ya,
grumpy_

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

I feel that i am so stupid. i spilled a pail of water in bedroom. now, there are papers soaking wet and i spent like the entire morning clearing up the mess. now, i am offically grumpy. all hail grumpy.

Proclaiming the arrival of Your Highness,
Grumpy

Monday, May 09, 2005

just wanted to say that i am in a weird mood. so whatever i say may not make any sense right now but i dont care. i am really a slacker. i didnt study much for ss and geog and look how horribly i done today. i could not even list out any factors and there was only one bloody reason. i didnt study hard enough. i was watching the television and reading my notes. how are you supposed to study like that? no wonder nothing good got into my brain. i dont know what is happening to me. u may say that nothing gets into your head but without distractions something will get into your head. except me. the ultimate slacker. i just keep watching televison. the darn bloody hell thing. television should not have been even created!

my poor mid years results will be all due to me. the poor results will be my fault. my L1R5 will go beyond 20. i will fail ssg. i will fail everything. i have no confidence in anything. but one thing for certain, at least maths d is safe from a failing grade. every other thing is at risk. i dont want to fail but i know i will. and why is this?

because i slack. it's all my fault. i was not strong enough. i gave in to temptation. everything is my fault. i did not study long enough. i was distracted. up to now, i cant even recall anything about atmosphere. what is wrong with me? nothing i hope. nothing.

i am just plain stupid. everyone is cleverer than me. i am the worst of the lot. and please do not say that you are stupid because although psle is a long long ago thing, all of you got higher marks than me.

god, please bless me. help me through this time and lead me to the light. i feel so lost. why am i like this? i know i should change but i cant. i am just so...

ok. i will stop being crazy. perhaps after this exam period and after watching kingdom of heaven, maybe i will drop this weird mood of mine. but right now, bear with me.

love ya lots,
grumpy_

Friday, May 06, 2005

okay. this is really weird and is not like anyone will ever read it but...
HAHA. HOUSE OF WAX IS NC16. YOU CAN'T WATCH IT TOO. I am a bit SadisTic. OKay. maybe not a bit

I AM SADISTIC.....

grumpy_

normally, i wouldnt type such a depressing entry. it is just so not my character but i am really tired. tired from all these examinations and lack of sleep. after cca today, i wanted to sleep but i couldnt or else at night, i would once again suffer from insomia. i cant spell that word...so i guess you should know the illness i am talking about. anyway, i learnt that i have to meet at school tomorrow at 0945 hours in the morning. we will depart at 1015 hours to the theatre. and guess what? i will have to spend my entire day there until 1830 hours when the results will be out. great. not enough sleep and they are torturing me like this. how can they do this? i have no more strength. or i want to do now is to sleep. sleep and more sleep. it's bad. i was so slack when studying for physics. will i be that slack when it comes to social studies and elective geography? i dont know. i dont feel like trying hard although i know i must. i am tired.

this is hell on earth.

i repeat. this is hell on earth. i am so bloody tired. god help me. god save me. although it should be pretty fun tomorrow, considering the amount of time we will be spending at the theatre. most likely we will be playing uno *no rolling of eyes please*, big2, listening to mp3 and reading death note and maybe kindaichi's death tv. i am tired. dont you feel that way too? at least the examinations are coming to an end, maybe then i wont feel that dead.

okay, this maybe kind of weird here but i cant resist writing it down. WHAT KIND OF PERSON LISTENS TO SYMPHONY 92.4 fm? and i repeat my sentence. my main point of this entire entry.

this is hell on earth.

of course, i wont leave you guys without humour. after all, most blogs are so serious. as in they are normally used for rantings. so i will leave you guys with the following picture. see if it makes your day. and yes, i think you guys should know by now, i have a warped sense of humour.

love ya,
grumpy_

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

Tribute to my current status:

1) My car crashed! This is one heart breaking moment....please. go into silence.

2) My elephant died....Again. observe a moment of silence...

3) Birch is alive! Let's rejoice! Oh wait, that's not a good thing. Let's plan on how to kill him AGAIN.

That's where he died and where he will live again.

That's all. I absolutely refuse to do the copper(II) sulphate solution. please give me and meiting your deepest condolences. haiz. bless that my family will be safe.

GAMBATTE FOR PHYSICS. HAIL PHYSICS.

getting more and more insane,
grumpy_

Sunday, May 01, 2005

i think i am over reacting but after being immersed in the historical records of the cold war for too long, i am really going crazy. i think i cannot see as well. i think i am getting fat. i think i am growing uglier by the minute. i think i am growing old. i think i have stopped growing except fatter. i think i am over reacting. i think i need someone to help me. some one save me from hitler taking over my world. no, i don't want birch. neither would i want the tsar because he has a wife. some elf save me. some elf. ELF, u listening?

your dwarf,
grumpy_

"I hate you."--Ling
"Is that so? Then it looks like our relationship's improved, because to hate someone, you're acknowledging their existence."--Tong Dao