| Thursday, March 06, 2008 |
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this is exactly how it feels like. a dull ache in the heart. the pain, the hurt and the tears which refuse to fall. alone. i know there are people out there but right now i can't feel their presence. i know they are there. but why cant i feel you? there are so many habitual actions which i do and it's coming back to haunt me. especially in a time like thise. especially when im needy. perhaps im pmsing. i dont know. but i feel horrible. im supposed to be optimistic but all i see are dark clouds even though the sky is visibly a clear white and blue. xiuhui is the more optimistic one, so is xinyu. or they just dont show their vulnerable side. i dont want to be this negative generator. i try to radiate positivity but somehow, all the more im hurting. from the normal actions. from their normal attitudes. because i know that's what i'll do. because i need more. and no one is giving. i need to stay strong. *takes a deep breath. i will. somehow. Labels: mellow |
| Sunday, March 02, 2008 |
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emo is the word. what? nothing. i wish i was an ostrich. i could dig a hole and stick my head into it. i would breath in the dirt filled iar and wonder why im living now. i am happy. but. sometimes i want to relive moments. stay young. and remember. |