| Thursday, May 22, 2008 |
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i dont know a lot of stuff right now. about myself. about my future. perhaps in some part of me, i knew i'm not up to becoming a doctor. i tried but still. it came up nil. i'm disappointed. i cried badly. but i'm fine. so i'm wondering actually how much i wanted it. things have always been okay for me. rvhs. hci. huang cheng. studies. and then it came down to this. university. the choice is clear, my path has sort of been chosen for me. i just dont know how well i can do in it, how much i want it and how much im interested in it. i'll take the first few weeks as experience but i'm sure i can find some joy in it. afterall, i always did. believe in myself. just earn money and travel. perhaps then i can finally fulfill a childhood desire of mine. travelling. i have friends who are troubling. well, i am too. over uncertainities. but when i make a decision, or somehow things don't work out, i don't want to regret stuff. i don't know anything anymore. right now. if anyone needs me, i'll be there. Labels: mellow |